I’ve been sad and sick since yesterday morning when the news first broke.  I’ve been dumbfounded at how someone could, not only DO something like take the lives of 20 innocent babies but how someone could miss any warning that this person was so sick and never thought to get him help.

This was just stupid.  This did not have to happen.

This is also the reason that Mister LK will not have guns of any sort in my home.  I don’t care how many locks and safes are there for “safety”.  If he wants to shoot them he can store them somewhere else.  I won’t be responsible for any child, young adult, adult, or animal getting their hands on something that can cause such damage.  Yes there is something to teaching your children responsibility, and no I can’t imagine that I’d miss my little girl’s anger to the point of rage, but there’s always a chance and that is simply not a chance I’m willing to take.

We had a rough night here at the LK house.  The Mister is away for the weekend and A and I are here alone.  She didn’t sleep for more than 4 hours last night and we were up for the day at 5:50am.  I am tired, cranky, annoyed, with little patience thanks to lack of sleep and hormones.  I am also putting in all my effort to not show my frustration today in respect to all of the families who would give anything in the world to hear their babies calling “mommy” one more time.

I love my little girl more than life itself and although there are days that I want to hide under the covers from her, I can’t imagine my life without her.  The devastation we have felt over the past 7 weeks has been nothing compared to what these families will face.  Our family is safe and I can’t thank gd enough for that.