7 Months Moody…

Wow I’m in a bad mood!

When I was pregnant with Miss A I found that I was crazy irritable…like all the time…So as I get farther along with this mystery baby I am trying hard to be aware of my attitude and keep it in check.  Today…I was unsuccessful.  A big FAIL on today in the cranky department.  I certainly raised my voice more than I should have, and my patience was essentially non-existant.  I can only try to do better tomorrow.  I’m hoping that Mister LK goes out to get some Nyquil or Tylenol PM so that he can sleep … so that I can sleep … because I would like to believe that my moodiness today was the fault of about 2 hours total of sleep last night.  The Mister has a cold, and he couldn’t sleep….so I didn’t sleep either.  I need tonight to be better than last night.  I’ve got things to do tomorrow!

Miss A was a good sport for the most part today.  She tried to make me laugh at every turn.  She also used her toddler ways to drive me up a wall with the whining…I know she saw I was weak and was trying to break me.  She did a few times, I can’t lie.

Why can’t grown ups just act out their feelings wherever they are????

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I think I’d feel much better after a tantrum…toddler style!

Hoping for a better day tomorrow!!!

Embrace the Camera Thursday 1.3.13

First embrace of the year! Done completely from my phone!

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This was new years day morning! Right now I’m sitting in front of my house waiting for the contractor. I’d rather be in my bed with my girl watching Cinderella but I can’t wait for this to be our home again so I’ll do what has to be done!

Happy 2013!

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Bye-Bye 2012…

We here at the LK house want to wish everyone a very happy New Year!  2012 brought a lot of things…a lot of wonderful things…and then a really terrible thing.  So in light of the recent months of 2012, Miss A, her Mommy & her Daddy would like to wish everyone a much improved 2013!

We had a wonderful night out with our amazing friends D&H.  Thank you for all the presents!!!  Thank you for sharing your New Years Eve with us!

Cheers to washing away all the mud & starting fresh!

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A washing her toesNow it is time for bed!  See ya next year!!!

You Make Plans….

And gd floods your house so you can make the design/decorating plans happen!  Right?

Construction is well underway, and even though our house still has a gaping hole to the outside & elements, they’ve made a ton of progress and I’m excited that they are going to start electric & plumbing tomorrow!  Our contractor is still convinced he’ll be done by April, and I am not.  However on the off chance that he wants to be able to spend some time with his family instead of being out in Long Beach all week long, I’ll say he’s motivated to get this rare winter full house renovation done with!  I thought I had better start planning!

mood boardI know that some of my inlaw family is going to be critical of how little color there is here, but I need to be inside the space to pick the color items.  I do not buy furniture or expensive items in colors since my color taste changes so frequently.  I like to use art and accessories to put the color in the rooms.  That will happen once we’re in the house.  Clearly Miss A is not afraid of color since her room is super colorful.  She helped me pick out almost everything for her room.  There will be sparkles incorporated as well since that is her main request!

It is crazy that we have to pick out every single item in every single room.  The only things we don’t need are dishes and wine glasses!  Crazy.

Will post more about my kitchen design when our layout is complete and we pick a cabinet maker!

If Mister LK and I are able to agree on these things, I’ll consider 2012 a success.  It has been quite a crazy year in the world & we’re looking forward to a better 2013!

 

Let’s Get Physical…

No…not me…I’m getting physical enough going up and down the 3 flights of stairs here 65 times a day!

These girls really think they are in trouble and when they get together now, they play SO nicely … it makes me feel so guilty for living so far away!

We had a birthday party last weekend for our friend Miss O … Miss A was in rare form!  She played nicely for about 2.3 seconds and then was just hungry.  I did manage to catch her being happy with her BFF 🙂

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A & PD treadmill2Of course I got them pouting too….Drama Queens!

A & PD pouting

Just Sad…Sick…Stupid…

I’ve been sad and sick since yesterday morning when the news first broke.  I’ve been dumbfounded at how someone could, not only DO something like take the lives of 20 innocent babies but how someone could miss any warning that this person was so sick and never thought to get him help.

This was just stupid.  This did not have to happen.

This is also the reason that Mister LK will not have guns of any sort in my home.  I don’t care how many locks and safes are there for “safety”.  If he wants to shoot them he can store them somewhere else.  I won’t be responsible for any child, young adult, adult, or animal getting their hands on something that can cause such damage.  Yes there is something to teaching your children responsibility, and no I can’t imagine that I’d miss my little girl’s anger to the point of rage, but there’s always a chance and that is simply not a chance I’m willing to take.

We had a rough night here at the LK house.  The Mister is away for the weekend and A and I are here alone.  She didn’t sleep for more than 4 hours last night and we were up for the day at 5:50am.  I am tired, cranky, annoyed, with little patience thanks to lack of sleep and hormones.  I am also putting in all my effort to not show my frustration today in respect to all of the families who would give anything in the world to hear their babies calling “mommy” one more time.

I love my little girl more than life itself and although there are days that I want to hide under the covers from her, I can’t imagine my life without her.  The devastation we have felt over the past 7 weeks has been nothing compared to what these families will face.  Our family is safe and I can’t thank gd enough for that.

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6 Weeks Later…

How is it only 6 weeks?  It feels like a year.  I know I’ve aged, I think Miss A has aged, and this situation sure has gotten old!

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Silver lining…b/c dwelling just isn’t getting us anywhere!  I’m renovating my entire house!  I am really excited and nervous about it but I think we’ve got a great team so far and I’m feeling better than I thought I would.  I’m super far away from my home & from my friends and that is really hard, but I’m trying to make it home at least once a week!  Tomorrow will be that day!  I’m excited to see the new framing and progress we’ve made since Friday!  We’re also meeting a kitchen designer & we’ll plan out the layout!

Debating on high-gloss vs. painted cabinets, flat fronts vs. shaker, marble vs. ceasarstone, drawers vs. cabinets….to name a few!  Opinions are welcome…except the ones that say high gloss & marble are high maintenance … I know that already!

29634_10151163981006935_1640464370_nOn the Miss A front, she started school last week!  She had a great week all things considered!  The drop off was torture…but the pick up was AWESOME!  She only gave me hell 1 day out of 3, and it was more to do with her being hungry and over stimulated than anything else!  She had picture day, which I was told she did with her blankie on her lap and they said she smiled!  She had pajama day which was exciting because she got to wear her princess tutu OUTSIDE!  And to top off her week, her Daddy dropped her off and picked her up on Friday!  All great things.  Oh – and she’s been going PP on the potty there!!!!!!!

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In Mommy news, I’m adjusting to living here in this new place that is more like a foreign country, and I’m settling in slowly but surely.  Having some time to explore the area and drive around while Miss A is in school has been helpful.

Now that we have internet and I have a very little bit of downtime, I plan to be back up and running here on LKSquared…hope to have lots more updates soon!

xoxo

 

If You’re Frustrated & You Know It….

Post it on Facebook?  As our good friend BT said…”if you didn’t see it on facebook or instagram…did it ever really happen?”

I use my personal blog to vent…and most of you who are reading this have already heard these frustrations from me over the phone!  If you don’t want to hear my opinion…you can close the page!

So this is my house just 2 days ago as compared to my house before Hurricane Irene…

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If you want to see what my house looked like “before” you can see it here

I left that Monday morning with 2 days worth of clothing, Mister LK, Miss A, T & M.  We haven’t been back since except to clean out our things and put them all on the curb.  Have you ever thought of what everything you ever owned would look like on a curb?  I hope not…but in case you need a visual…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This isn’t actually all of it…more was added over the next few days, but this is the bulk….

Here’s my problem…If you are living in your house now or will be able to be back in within a month…you didn’t lose everything.  Please stop saying you did.  Yes life is different, yes our city was devastated, you probably lost your car(s), and lots of memories in basements…I am not minimizing your loss…but you’re in your bed.  Your kids are in their beds…in their homes…safe.  Stop collecting free things if you don’t need them.  Stop complaining about having no power when you have a generator and are warm.  If you post a photo of a movie being played on a flat screen tv … don’t you even think about complaining about no power.  My Grandma has Alzheimers and had to be moved out of her apartment because of no power, no heat, no hot water…now she can’t move back into the home she has had since she got married.  She can complain (although she probably won’t remember to)…

I am very very frustrated at these people who are publicly complaining about their “dire” situations as they “rough” it…losing 1/2 your things does not make you destitute.  You have your jobs, your family, your house.  You are not in a shelter with your kids.

I am so thankful for the help my family and friends have extended to us that I couldn’t even dream of complaining about our losses on social media.  It’s disgusting.  All of those things above will be taken care of.  Thanks mostly to my family and friends.  I was sad to lose sentimental things as I have said before, and I believe I am entitled to be sad about it.  I’m just not entitled to complain to people who lost much much more…some people lost PEOPLE.  Thank gd I didn’t.

When I re-read my post about impending Irene I realize what I thought this was going to be…I thought I’d be having a sleepover with Grandma and going home to a few inches and some messed up floors.  I prepared in much the same way.  I cleaned my ASS off….I had clean sheets on the bed, freshly mopped floors, sparkling bathrooms, sterilized kitchen….all my valuables were up high.  Who ever thought that “up high” wouldn’t help when that furniture floated into the next room….

I took what mattered to me….my family.

I think people who need a way to complain publicly should sign up for a free blog.  That way I don’t have to see it and I don’t have to look mean by deleting you….Say thanks for what you have everyday because you just never know when it will all be taken away.  Call your friends or write them an email or start your own blog…social media is far reaching and your insensitivity might hurt people you don’t even know.

Thank gd we left….and thank gd we have this little one to make us crazy!

 

Embrace the Camera Thursday 11.15.12

So…here we are 17 days after Mother Nature released her wrath against us in the form of that damn Superstorm Sandy.  Thanks to Mister LK’s amazing company…we were able to take a break from the stress and enjoy a weekend of relaxation!  We are so incredibly lucky…words can’t even describe it.

It was such an amazing experience to be able to see Miss A enjoying the warm weather and playing carelessly with the other kids!  Truly amazing.  And the massage wasn’t too  bad either 😉

 

Embracing the Camera Thursday 11.8.12

I am re-energized to take more photos with Miss A, since I lost so many!  This one is from last weekend when we were able to take a time-out from all the worry and stress and go to the Big Apple Circus.  It was a great time with Grandma, Auntie H, Cousins S & A, Mommy, Daddy & Miss A.  I highly recommend the Big Apple Circus for little ones.  It is not too overwhelming and still so much fun for everyone 🙂

This was taken outside at Lincoln Center near the fountain…It was really nice to have a little bit of happy/normal in our lives.  I hope it is not too long from now that we can do something happy/fun again.  It seems as though everything these days is work…

I hope everyone has a great Thursday.  It seems Mother Nature is ticked off.  4ft of water wasn’t enough…now we have lots of snow.  I hope Mister LK has a productive day today meeting with our insurance adjusters and contractor.  I hope he isn’t too cold and that he doesn’t come home as sick as I am!  This is just the first step, but at least it is a first step.  Now I am just praying that once we take this step, the next one isn’t “knock down house”!

 

Join Emily…I’m telling you…once you lose everything, you’ll realize how important these photos are…